A big mistake

A big mistake
My today’s blog is specially 4 those of my gal friends who r still in teens. today I’m gonna disclose 1 of my biggest mistakes in life.
It was 11 A.M ,4th april 2002. I got up from sleep finished my breakfast and picked the telephone receiver shivering . I was going to call 1 of my fave writers with the initial S.A who also worked as a senior sub editor of a renowned newspaper. I talked to that person. He asked my name , which class did I read in etc. when he was about to hang up I asked him his home phone no. he gave me his mobile no. I kept on screaming the whole day in my home-“I’ve talked to him,--------- ”every1 in my home came 2 know dat excecpt my abbu.then after a few weeks I called him again, this time without telling my mom.then again and again.one day I told my mom that I talked 2 him regularly on his home phone. She was surprised but said nothing bcoz she trusted me so much..i used to talk to him every week sometimes more than once a week. I donno when, I donno why I started feeling that I no more respected him as my fave writer. My feelings had become deeper. He used to call me ‘apni’ though I was more than 12 years younger to him---- 8 months passed like dis.then 1 cursed night I called him @ 11pm . and he said “barsha tumi na majhe majhe khub sundor kotha bolo tumi kit a jano?’’(barsha, sometimes u talk so sweetly do u know dat?)then he said almost in a coy- “barsha , I love u, plz come 2 me ,come closer, ----closer I’ll love u..love u so sweetly.----- barsha, give ur sweet love to me-------. My whole world became foggy in front of me. I started feeling a continuous glorious rapture, I felt like my cherished dream had come true. That wass my sweet prince begging 4 my sweet love.i couldn’t say so much that night. B4 hanging up he repeated “I love u”. I couldn’t sleep whole night. I was drenched by showers of happiness. I told myself-“finally I caught my dreamlover, he’s not a dream anymore.”months passed after dat. and I found many things abnormal with dat person. Most of d time he used so many words those were not romantic but sexually explicit. I used to protest but he said-“I’m always like dis. Don’t call me if u have any problem.”I kept on forgiving him and didn’t give up calling. I don’t think I gotta tell u why.I started hiding all these things to my mom.once I went 2 d bookfair wid my parents and met him.mom thought dat I was just a fan of him.in front of my mom he treated me like a baby gal. And when I called him after 1 week he told me-“barsha tumi khub chhoto”(u r a baby gal)but within a few days d situation became like b4 again…..
I was always in a dilemma. “is dis man perfect 4 me?”. My studies started 2 b effected when my hsc exam came near 1 day 1 called him & said “plz don’t tempt and misguide me.i’m really ashamed of wat I did. My mom really trusts me. She will b so disappointed if she ever hears me talking to u in such explicit words”.then that devil said—wat d hell r u talking ‘bout? U r a baby gul, I didn’t ever consider u as an adult”. I protested dis time—“but I’m already an adult so don’t try to mislead me anymore”. I hang up.i started studying hard 4 my hsc deleting that guy from mind. Then after my exam I discovered that d guy had got married even without telling me! A women used 2 pick d phone & he said it’s my sis in law!then 1 day dat woman told me dat they had got married and letter he admitted d truth. He started avoiding me day by day then after getting admitted to my BSC in made up my mind not2 call him anymore and d darkest story of my life came 2 an end.
Aha!what a long blog. Friends I wanna say dat I feel ashamed dat I was involved in such kinda unhealthy relationship but I can also undaztand it happened bcoz of my physical & mental immaturity at dat age. So frinds, beware of these devils who have such a dirty mind behind good persona.my sweet lil sises , plz don’t let ur emotion take u over. I also warn my male frinds to b alert. someday ur own sis can fall victim to this kinda so called man.